I feel like I’ve hit rock bottom and no matter how hard I try, it’s all just useless. Wasted efforts, wasted thoughts,…. I hate what I’m feeling and I hate myself more. I hate myself so much, I even made you hate me… everything I love, everything I live for I seem to push away from me, and I cry myself to sleep silently so he doesn’t hear.. I feel like the most useless object in the universe and there’s no shaking it!